Well, I'm not referring to any of Deep Purple song here but hopelessly trying to explain what I feel.... I feel like screaming. From my earlier post, you all (I don't know whom I'm referring to, but whatever) know I'm into this completely new crazy world... The Corporate World...
Here, there are no 'wassups' but 'Hellos', no 'friends of buddies' but 'colleagues', no 'bakwass' but 'pretentious intellectual talks', no 'hanging out' but 'meetings', no 'vellegiri' just 'sophistication and performance'... Te list goes on and on and on..... Sometimes I feel like screaming...
Its not like I'm not liking it. There are whole lot of good things too, like amazing infrastructure and facilities to start with, the pay is good too (I'm not satisfied though) and very talented, knowledgeable and interesting professionals. Like I always say, I'll fall in love with this environment too, but the transition is taking its toll on me, its very difficult.
Sometimes, I'm busy with work or trainings and everybody else is done with lunch so end up having my food alone (I hate eating alone). The work is like me and my laptop, occasional calls to US and a few mails back and forth, it happens a lot of times that its past 3 hours and I haven't spoken even a single word (I'm a chatter box, used to be at least). The distance of my place from office is 18 km and the time I take to reach back is 90 min. minimum, on one occasion I was stuck for 4 hours in the traffic (thanks to rains)..... Sometimes I feel like screaming.....
Friends are getting busy, weekend meetings also getting difficult due some thing or the other 'more important' stuff comes by. The kamwali bai doesn't turn up for 4 out of the 7 days (plus 1 day is holiday) so get back home and prepare food or order some and there is no energy left even to engulf the food. No time to read books no time to arrange the room... Sometimes I feel like screaming...
You write a long e mail and it gets deleted before sending, you take a mental note to buy a particular product the next weekend and its gone, you think of calling a friend and chatting and n/w is down, you want to run a s/w and the licence is gone, you go for lunch and the queue is long, you reach home and the lift is not working and you stay on the 5 th floor, you try to sleep and tears start to flow.... Sometimes I feel like screaming....
